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Hi my name is Kristen. When I was 14, I met a girl at school who was 16. She was very beautiful and fun to be around. We didn't talk that much, but one day my best friend (he's gay) told me that she was bi. I thought that she was very sexy and I had never considered myself bi/lesbian before. I then began to wonder about my sexuality because I had a huge crush on this girl. I told my best friend these feelings and he said he knew all along that I was holding that back from him. He began to tell me the "basics" of being gay in a straight world. Anyway, to make a very long story short....he told this girl that I was questioning my sexuality. She told him she thought I was hot.

So, we decided to have a relationship. We called each other every night and talked for many hours. We began seeing each other outside of school and trying things to show affection. We wrote many letters to each other, almost one a day.

I came out to many of my friends and soon I became "that lesbian" to everyone at school. At first I denied to everyone the remarks and I was so ashamed of myself. Some friends were still my friends, others had abandoned me in my biggest time of need, and some thought it was cool. I realized that I had changed to them...I was not the same person I was before around my friends. They made comments about my sexuality whether I wanted them to or not. In gym class girls were afraid to change in front of me...they thought I would have some sick fantasies about them or try to touch them. After all of that I became a better person, more confident than I was before.