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Jenn
My name's Jenn I'm 16 and I'm Still Questioning I have been for about 4
months
jenn_1609@hotmail.com
First, I told my best friend Joe. He was a little weird about it. I
don't
think he believed me, but he gave me a hug and we are ok about it.
Then there's my other best friend; I told her and it was fine. She said the
same thing
as Joe. Then came the rest of my group of friends - about 12 people know
in
total (my parents and my brother included).
I told my mom, we are really close and she's still in denial about it.
Other than her "You want to Lick Carpet" comment, she was easier
then my dad.
I'm still just questioning, but I read Greg's Coming Out story and I agree;
don't admit or come
out until you're ready and you know for sure. See I did the same thing. I
fiqured I could tell my mom anything, which is true but about a week later
I guess it was bugging her so she told my dad. My dad cried. I didn't see him
cry but my mom told me he did. Wow that hurt to know my dad cried, but I
did a little research and I think it was normal. I finally told my dad about it
at the kitchen table. It was a pure considence that he was eating steak, he
started yelling at me accusing me of "trying to ruin his dinner"
and then he
goes can we talk after about this later. I said no because I knew he'd
avoid
it. So I headed for my room tears streaking my eyes and he started to
curse. I seriously had no intentions of ruining anything, but I felt as if
he
really meant I was ruining his life. I just felt comfortable at the table
that night and I had built up my courage. Later that night we talked. We
talk a bit now, but my dad doesn't bring it up and neither does my mom. My
friends are much easier to talk to, but I have been drifting apart from
them.
Due to depression, I don't really know which is which sometimes. But my
point is you should be who you are and NEVER be ashamed of your sexuality.
Thank you. It felt good to write that - Jenn
